So today we pretty much owned the city
Well I’m in NYC now and this is for real— I actually live here.
Everyone said I couldn’t do it and I wouldn’t make it.
Everyone told me how expensive it is and assumed that I had a ton of money saved, but I didn’t. Nobody seemed to think this was possible.
Well, I’ve been here for a day and I have a place to live and a really good job lined up. I am so under-qualified for the position I got, but they hired me for my personality.
Just keep pushing, keep stretching, and keep dreaming. Never give up, and don’t limit yourself. Your dreams are not meant for tomorrow, they are meant for today. You cannot wait until you are ready, you just have to go.
Melissa and I boarded a one way bus to NYC. We are on the bus all night long and we are so excited to finally get there! We left with nowhere to live when we get there in the morning. That is right, no place to rest our heads tomorrow night. We don’t have a whole lot of money either. Us getting on the bus was an act of faith. We were contacted like an hour ago about a room, and it looks like there is a good chance we will get it, although we are not sure yet. Tonight is so special to me though.
I’m thinking about all the times people have told me “you can’t” “that is stupid” “you have to plan”… the list goes on and on of the general disapproval of what I’m doing. I also think about myself as a child and as a teenager. I remember being excited about getting my first job back in high school. I remember thinking that my minimum wage job in small town Michigan was the most amazing thing ever. I’m thinking about how much I did not believe in myself and how afraid I was of the world around me. Getting through a day of school without being crippled by anxiety and having a panic attack use to be such an accomplishment. I was shy, sad, and I did not love myself— at all.
I sit here now, twenty years of age, on a bus to New York City. I have learned to love myself. I have learned that God always comes through. He will always take care of me and give me the courage to say yes to my dreams. I am about to enter a whole new level of excellence, success, and happiness. God gets all the credit. He is my lover, my support system, my brother, and my friend. What are you waiting for? Say yes to Him— and watch your wildest dreams come true.
I am so honored to be used to change people’s lives. This is the stuff that reminds me why I do what I do. To see a life change is nothing short of incredible.
I also love the shock of an unexpected blessing. My boss invited me to his house and he literally cried his eyes out as he managed to utter the words “you have made such an impact on my life”.
God gets all the credit. Liquid love is always a good thing.
Me packing last minute: making the executive decision to throw everything into garbage bags and call it good.
Living in a mystical reality seems foolish at first glance but honestly I think that it makes way more sense than thinking you have everything figured out. Like I don’t always know what to believe but at least I’m swimming in rivers of deep peace.
Average people believe what makes sense to them, extraordinary people question why something makes sense.
I’m always trying to low-key become friends with people 10 years older than me
My first piercing 🎉
hey guys look what I got done last night ;)
As much as I don’t push Charismatic Christian tendencies on anyone, I literally cannot avoid Charismatic activity in my own life. It is not something I advocate or parade around about. It is not even something I seek, most of the time. Stuff just happens and it is so normal to me that I forget how weird it is to other people. Its like I’m in my own little magical universe.
I’ll just be going about my normal business and all of a sudden I see the eyes of Jesus and drift off into a trance-like state. Sometimes I’ll be at a party and I’ll be really drunk and then realize that I actually have not been drinking alcohol. My favorite thing though is when I get high in my room and I literally can hardly open my eyes. Today God made an article of clothing appear in my closet, neatly hanging as if it has always been there. Gold dust is cool too. I always get sparkles on my cheek bones. I just think the fact that God likes glitter speaks volumes about who He is.
you will fail
you will lose
you will be rejected
the only question is, how will you respond?
Tyra Banks - Mega Magazine February 2014
photos by Joshua Jordan
this is what perfection looks like
Today, if you’ve been believing God for something that seems like it’s taking a long time, don’t give up! Remember, God knows exactly where you are. He knows the desires He’s placed within you. He’s working things together for your good. He’s promised to finish what He started, and as you delight yourself in Him, He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart!
I’m like that unruly wife that doesn’t know when to shut up. I never know how much is too much, and I love pushing my boundaries. I am really good at getting myself into trouble, but at least I’m social. People are my true passion and the more up close and personal you allow me to be, the better.
God is like my chill af husband that sees and knows everything but loves me regardless. He keeps me in check and at the end of the day he is the one my heart truly desires.