I’ve witnessed and been the victim of homophobia throughout life, yet sometimes I am still surprised by it. Today it was raining and I went into a Rite Aid near Times Square, NYC. As I was making my purchase the cashier overheard a rather loud gay man speaking in a manner that was, well, gay. This cashier proclaimed, in front of me, that ‘the gays’ are the scum of the city. He also looked at the man and said “disgusting”. He also went on to explain to his co-worker that he would never be gay. “I like pussy”, he explained. She nodded her head in agreement and I stood there, dumbfounded. I am in New York City and I just experienced that. This is suppose to be one of the places that homosexual people can feel at ease, and suffer less discrimination. I don’t care what your religious views are on homosexuality— there is never an excuse for homophobia. After all it is a fear, and fear never finds its origins in God.
1:37 am • 2 September 2014 • 7 notes
I have the honor of working at New York Fashion week and I have to wear all black every day. I don’t want to wear the same thing so I’m making subtle alterations for each day that I work. It is fashion week, after all :)
TO THINK THAT A WEEK AGO I WAS MAKING SALADS IN MEMPHIS, TN.
WELCOME TO MY NEW AND MUCH IMPROVED LIFE.
I’M SO GRATEFUL FOR EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW.
9:52 pm • 1 September 2014 • 8 notes
“When the rich wage war, it’s the poor who die.”
— Jean-Paul Sartre (via philosophy-quotes)
12:49 pm • 1 September 2014 • 483 notes
#day3 today I’m happy because I got the most incredible job. #ftspermlamp #ftoversizedsilverware #fthappybdaysign #happybdayjodi #vscocam
this is my new dining room… sperm lamp + giant spoon/fork
11:49 pm • 30 August 2014 • 7 notes
All I want in life is to be one level below Beyoncé
11:48 pm • 30 August 2014 • 4 notes
Well I’m in NYC now and this is for real— I actually live here.
Everyone said I couldn’t do it and I wouldn’t make it.
Everyone told me how expensive it is and assumed that I had a ton of money saved, but I didn’t. Nobody seemed to think this was possible.
Well, I’ve been here for a day and I have a place to live and a really good job lined up. I am so under-qualified for the position I got, but they hired me for my personality.
Just keep pushing, keep stretching, and keep dreaming. Never give up, and don’t limit yourself. Your dreams are not meant for tomorrow, they are meant for today. You cannot wait until you are ready, you just have to go.
11:46 am • 29 August 2014 • 11 notes
Melissa and I boarded a one way bus to NYC. We are on the bus all night long and we are so excited to finally get there! We left with nowhere to live when we get there in the morning. That is right, no place to rest our heads tomorrow night. We don’t have a whole lot of money either. Us getting on the bus was an act of faith. We were contacted like an hour ago about a room, and it looks like there is a good chance we will get it, although we are not sure yet. Tonight is so special to me though.
I’m thinking about all the times people have told me “you can’t” “that is stupid” “you have to plan”… the list goes on and on of the general disapproval of what I’m doing. I also think about myself as a child and as a teenager. I remember being excited about getting my first job back in high school. I remember thinking that my minimum wage job in small town Michigan was the most amazing thing ever. I’m thinking about how much I did not believe in myself and how afraid I was of the world around me. Getting through a day of school without being crippled by anxiety and having a panic attack use to be such an accomplishment. I was shy, sad, and I did not love myself— at all.
I sit here now, twenty years of age, on a bus to New York City. I have learned to love myself. I have learned that God always comes through. He will always take care of me and give me the courage to say yes to my dreams. I am about to enter a whole new level of excellence, success, and happiness. God gets all the credit. He is my lover, my support system, my brother, and my friend. What are you waiting for? Say yes to Him— and watch your wildest dreams come true.
10:41 pm • 27 August 2014 • 9 notes
I am so honored to be used to change people’s lives. This is the stuff that reminds me why I do what I do. To see a life change is nothing short of incredible.
I also love the shock of an unexpected blessing. My boss invited me to his house and he literally cried his eyes out as he managed to utter the words “you have made such an impact on my life”.
God gets all the credit. Liquid love is always a good thing.
3:10 am • 24 August 2014 • 9 notes
Me packing last minute: making the executive decision to throw everything into garbage bags and call it good.
9:17 pm • 23 August 2014 • 5 notes
Living in a mystical reality seems foolish at first glance but honestly I think that it makes way more sense than thinking you have everything figured out. Like I don’t always know what to believe but at least I’m swimming in rivers of deep peace.
12:18 am • 20 August 2014 • 4 notes
Average people believe what makes sense to them, extraordinary people question why something makes sense.
11:53 pm • 19 August 2014 • 9 notes
I’m always trying to low-key become friends with people 10 years older than me
11:40 pm • 19 August 2014 • 5 notes
My first piercing 🎉
hey guys look what I got done last night ;)
12:14 am • 19 August 2014 • 26 notes
As much as I don’t push Charismatic Christian tendencies on anyone, I literally cannot avoid Charismatic activity in my own life. It is not something I advocate or parade around about. It is not even something I seek, most of the time. Stuff just happens and it is so normal to me that I forget how weird it is to other people. Its like I’m in my own little magical universe.
I’ll just be going about my normal business and all of a sudden I see the eyes of Jesus and drift off into a trance-like state. Sometimes I’ll be at a party and I’ll be really drunk and then realize that I actually have not been drinking alcohol. My favorite thing though is when I get high in my room and I literally can hardly open my eyes. Today God made an article of clothing appear in my closet, neatly hanging as if it has always been there. Gold dust is cool too. I always get sparkles on my cheek bones. I just think the fact that God likes glitter speaks volumes about who He is.
11:57 pm • 18 August 2014 • 5 notes